There's a first time for everything!

so it's been awhile since i've blogged..

my first album is being printed now so it should be shipped to me soon..finally..right? haha

so tonight i played at a charity event that my brother's friend has put together. i was asked randomly when i was visiting my friend at work with my brother in LA. so i was graciously invited to performed a short set at the Cancer Awareness Event.

driving to Hollywood is always a hassle even if there's no traffic up until you see your exit like a few miles away. this will be my second time playing outside of my own lil "recording" room..so i was looking forward to it

the short set that i had included one of my originals that i wrote, a christmas song, and cover songs.

the environment at first was weird because i thought..wow i just came back from church..and here i am at Madame Royale..which is a bar. haha so the setting was dark..we had a dj and drinks..i also found it weird that a charity event is at a bar..haha but then i got used to it as time went by. at first the schedule was for me to be first..but someone had to leave early so we switched..so i was 3rd..THEN..to set the mood right i ended up playing last to end the show.. which is a good thing i guess.. hahaa. i had a great time and i hope the people there had a great time. they seem to have enjoyed the songs that i have chosen to sing :) now thats a plus :)

but i felt like for me there was technical difficulties with my guitar..but its all good..i got through it and they enjoyed it.

the testimonies that the two ladies gave about how they survived cancer really scared me at first..cuz it can really happen to anyone even if it doesnt run in the family..its all out there..but then again it amazes me how God is so powerful and how he saved these two ladies...i was really touched. i always like to get involved with these kind of things..not because its for the better cause but because i know i will get something good out of this..don't be afraid to go out and help if you have the opportunity. this reminds me of a song:

"Change" by Carrie Underwood...go listen to it and read the lyrics if you want..it's good

well now i'm just chillin at home..back to reality :) i always enjoy playing but whenever i get nervous i become so tense so when i come home my body aches..i need a hot bath..HAHAHA..sike..i will just cuddle in my blankets and read.

check out my website : www.susanyu.us

my youtube site: www.youtube.com/peelbanana1211 (or just type is my name Susan Yu)

will talk to ya'll later. PEACE!

-JUNO

I'm Not a Quitter

wow it's just been way too long since i last blogged. haha

i'm just sitting here in the living room watching friends and as i sit here..i thought.."why not blog?"

so you might wonder..or maybe not..what is going on in the life of Susan Yu.

mm nothing TOO exciting..haha. went to 2 colbie caillat concerts..met colbie caillat for the first time..it was awesome..second time i failed to take a picture with her..because when i was next to her and we were ready to take a picture..the girl who took my picture said my camera ran out of batteries..when i got to my car..turned it back on..it started to work again..failed..oh well next time..

things have just been like in my face these days..even though i'm taking a break from school and that work is just on and off depending on how my schedule is like..but the music stuff..is like in my face..at first it was on hold for the longest time because i didn't know what was going on..then finally some update..and now there's alot of things i have to do to make this right and to make this actually happen..this first "project" was suppose to me done and out at around late august..but now that it's november we know that it did not happen

as much as i think that my dreams just faded away because i lost patience..i am not a quitter.. i ask got for patience and just to believe.

other than music stuff..life has just been..one step at a time. or living one day at a time.

i've been doing writing here and there..topics go from like haters to lost friends to love to like everything.. haha whatever is on my mind..it just comes out..and also just the music that i listen to i guess influences me to write..because one day i want my music out there..BELIEVE

i am not a quitter..i am not a quitter.

i'll leave you with that.

PS: oh and GO GET CARRIE UNDERWOOD'S NEW ALBUM "PLAY ON"..go get it NOW! haha

-Susan aka JUNO

EXPLOSION

so these past mm couple of weeks or few weeks or whatevers..has been mmm interesting...busy..or what not..

some fun things happened and some other things that just makes you sit and think..

fun things..meeting and hanging out with Colbie Caillat..seeing her perform live and all the other performers..awesome...gotta love music.

work is..mmm work..even though my store manager and assistant manager got promoted..and left us..work is work..and i can't complain because i have a job..

other fun things..hanging out with my brother over at linda's house (future sister in law)

not only are they there..BUT also because doggies are there..i love doggies.

other stuff goin on in the life of Susan Yu...will be playing at my first event this coming friday september 25th in Irvine. i don't worry so much about the performance because it's not all about the performance.yes i would want to play it right, remember all my lyrics..but there's only one reason why i'm up there..is to praise our Lord. the one who put me there and put me where i am in my life right now. yea things may be rough..but thats life and i have to face that. i have to really appreciate what i have in my life right now..yea alot of times my emotions will get to me and i'll just sit down and listen to music for hours ...or i'm just not in the mood to talk or to play..but that's life. gotta live with it.no worries i'm no emotional freak. unless you cry in front of me..then i might cry as well..but you probably won't catch me in tears

so for this event i had to write more songs..so out of all the ones i wrote in the last 2 weeks or so..i just had to pick two..so for the past two weeks..i'm excited but nervous at the same time..and now i find out some of my church people will be there..that's even more nerve racking...oh well..they say equipment is whatevers..so they tell us we can bring our own..haha..so i dont really know what to expect..but i do hope that these youth kids will see what God can really do in people's lives and in their lives..writing songs takes alot of energy..for some random reason i like to write songs randomly at night..late at night..like right now its almost 2am..and i have things on my mind for a song..weird...writing is fun but it was just alot of thinking..kind of just putting myself aside from everything and everyone..

one day i hope to write with other people. it's always good to get other people's ideas too

throughout those couple of weeks..it just made me think alot about what's gonna happen next..if ya'll have like asian parents..or maybe its just my mom..but they keep asking if like youre dating or what not..of course girls think about those kind of things..of course i think about what kind of guy i would want to date and if i will ever date this person..but as i think about that..it just comes to me that the right person will come at the right time..so then what's the point in having crushes?? dont know..but those just come..and sometimes they dont go..but i realized that even if i do have a crush on someone..they will never know..so i'm just holding that in for long and nothing will happen after that..unless i tell them i like them..but that never ends the way i want it..and thinking about it..i think that what happened was right..so my crush for someone or if it ever comes..will be low key..i will enjoy my life as me for now..

so music...first album is pretty much done..all i need is to get them in the mail..i don't do music for no reason..there's always a reason for everything. and i am blessed to have made this album..even though its not ALL what people expect..i like to mix things in the album a bit with secular and non secular stuff..but for the second album..we'll see what happens..i still have goals..that i want to reach..but for now one step at a time..

after all this writing, playing, singing, working, i feel i need a break..my head is like exploding..i just want to go on a vacation...or just go somewhere where its quiet and i can just breathe in the clean air in the mountains

song of the moment: Fearless By Colbie Caillat (Breakthrough album)

and i'll leave y'all with my favorite verse:

Jeremiah 29:11

-Juno

OMGPOP MADNESS

soo before i never wanted to give in to OMGPOP. which is an online game..more like mini games..like balloono which is like bomber man..or hover cart..which is like mario cart..hit machine which is like rockband or tap tap if ya'll have like an ipod or iphone..etc etc...

but after seeing my brother and his fiance linda play..i decided to sign up for it..at first its interesting and you want to try all the games..but after awhile it gets tiring..but its quite addicting..like i'll play when i wake up or whenever im bored..

but after sunday..yesterday..i am starting to hate OMGPOP..being a competitive person..this wasnt the right game(s) for me..i will get really pissed off at me or others..mostly me though..cuz of stupid mistakes..but today we decided to have a tournament for food...wendys...there were 6 people playing and we pretty much played all the games..and man..it makes me hate OMGPOP alot!! like ALOT!..but i still play it....gay...

but today..i lost it..i HATE it...but then again ...i still play it..i try to play when people arent playing..which is like late at night..but sometimes it gets boring because all the rooms are empty..

so if you havent played OMGPOP before..i am warning you..its addicting..and frustrating..ya might lose your friends..haha jk jk..well idk..maybe..haha..just makes you mad at times..and want to quit..

i had to blog about OMGPOP because it just brought madness in the house..

i will control my limits now..gotta focus on other things than these freakin games..

time to work out...

PEACE

-Juno

CHAOS

wow i have not blogged in here for so long..i am so not good at this..my bad my bad..umm i think the place i left off was my trip to see Carrie underwood Live at the Mid State Fair..i believe thats where i left off..so hopefully i can remember what happened after that..hahaha

mmm a lot has happened..21st birthday, camping trip, getting music finalized...writing songs...etc etc well i guess its not THAT much..but i just feel like alot has happened..haha

well the start of august i finally turned 21..and honestly..its a blur..HAHA..well i do remember people there..but by the end of the day my head felt really heavy if ya'll know what i mean...but it was a great time to hang out with my friends. :)

the camping trip turned out to be a good trip. at first it started off really slow and like it was so hot and i felt like we were in the middle of a desert because no one was next to us or near us except for the camp host who was a douche. sorry for the language...but as we got settled into our tents and had some food in our stomachs...we started to get comfortable..its not the greatest place to go..but i guess it was an experience..we pretty much just stayed at our campsite and played games and all..well the guys seemed to have alot more fun than the girls...but overall it was a great trip..maybe if i go to one next time..itll be at a better place :) the best part was being with friends and just having fun..there was one moment to be remembered but i will not say since it wasnt me..haha..lets just say..vomit was involved..haha..

now going on with music..i know i said that my album will be released in july..but theres alot more than i thought that i need to take care of..or needs to be taken care of..so right now everything is coming together and getting finalized..so hopefully by the end of this month or early september..and right now i'm working on my second album at the same time..not working on it too much..because i dont even know what kind of album i want it to be or which songs i want on there..so yea..just a blur right now..but the first album needs to go out first..haha..

thats pretty much life right now..i mean there are tough times here and there..but God always has perfect timing..gotta believe in Him and myself plus confidence..at times i feel weak..actually alot of times..but i like to believe that i'm alright..not bad right??

OH i totally forgot...the most recent event i went to was the hillsong conference 2009..what a blessing it was..i will post a picture in a different blog..i think this is getting way too long..but yea..praise was awesome..workshops and sermons were amazing..it always amazes me how many people come together to worship and learn more about our Lord Jesus Christ.. what a blessing conference..i hope that if they ever come back to the U.S i will attend again..next year its in Sydney..HAHA..

well for now that is all..if i have anything else on my mind...i will "try" to blog..HAHA..

PEACE OUT YA'LL!!

-Juno

SHE'S BACK!!...well for a bit

hello blog world. sorry its been awhile. i'm really bad at keep ya'll updated. so sorry

well what i want to blog about is my recent trip/drive. haha

so last wednesday, the 22nd i believe i drove 4+ hours just to see the person who has inspired me to do what i do..which is music..if ya'll didnt know..haha she is one of my biggest inspirations..brooke fraser is also my inspiration too. ANYWAYS!!!

so it all started with the drive there.i woke up around 9..got ready and started to drive. knowing that i had to drive 4+ hours..made me really hot for some reason..HAHA..so there really isnt much to talk about the drive because its basically going straight up north on the 5 freeway..haha..boring right??

anyways so i finally get to the california mid state fair around 3pmish and was ready to PARTAY! haha..so since Carrie Underwood did not perform until 730 that night..i had a few hours to kill..so i walked around the fair to see what they all had..seems like a typical fair..havent been to one in so long..didnt want to spend money so i just walked around..definitely wore the wrong thing because when i left home it was 80..when i got there it was 102!!!! i wore a flanel and skinny jeans..AND i thought it was gonna be cold at night so i brought a jacket...wth??? haha..so anyways..back to the fair..

there was a talent show that was about to start at around 430pm..so i decided to watch kids of all ages show off their talents..there were dances and singing and all..alot of them seem to be carrie underwood and taylor swift fans..they sang like the same songs..haha competition there eh?? so i was watching that and then went to go watch carrie underwood rehearse....secretly..haha..found a spot where i can see the stadium without entering..after her rehearsal i went back to the talent show then the stadium an hour early..

man i was so happy carrie underwood was BACK!! last time i saw her in concert was back in november when she came to the Nokia Theatre..7 months ago!! she is almost done with her third album..first single will be release second week of august..yessss!!my visit to nashville to see her was different because it was a small private concert...but this one was at a huge stadium..man if ya'll havent seen her live..ya'll are missin out!!! hahahaha

i felt like i was in the country side..everywhere i go country music is playing..and whaddaya know..i was pretty much the only asian there..hahahhahaha

i had pretty good seats..if i had better lighting..my camera would have stopped going blurry and then clear then blurry..i need a better zoom too..haha..but overall good seats..could have been better if i decided to go sooner..haha i hate being indecisive....

i would tell you the story about the people around me..but you can just ask privately and i will tell you..it was a 3 hour concert..and man..well worth the drive and everything!! too bad i didnt get a meet and greet..that would have been bomb!!!!

i will show you one clip of carrie performing..this is a special one because you can see that her fiddler falls..and she cant hold in her laugh...so sad but funny..even carrie thinks so..haha

so after the wonderful 3 hour concert..the thought about driving home hit me..HAHAHHA..another 4 hour drive home..but at night this time...wasnt too bad until i was almost home and i got really sleepy..haha..but thanks to james to kept me awake.

so that was my great story about my trip to see carrie underwood...one day i will meet her..its just not the right time..ahahha..

OH! and what makes this concert even more special..carrie was sick..she had a tonsil infection so she went to the hospital in beverly hills the day before the concert..and here she is still giving us an amazing concert...what an amazing person and amazing nite..

i usually dont post any videos of like concerts or anything on youtube or what not...kinda just for my own collection/memories...i know i know sounds selfish..

so here is the video i was talking about..the song is called Last Name..

PEACE OUT YA'LL

NEVER EVER EVER

so its been awhile since i have blogged..and what happened to me today..or yesterday i should say..is worth blogging..or is it?? haha

BE PREPARED..ITS LONG

well here it goes anyways..saturday..june 27th, 2009

i worked alot this week..more than usual and its because we had alot of floor sets to do..and for me alot of folding clothes and backstocking them..well saturdays i usually don't work but i had a call in..so thats like a maybe i will work if they call me..so i decided to go to the beach with some of my friends..because i havent gone in awhile and i thought it would be nice to hang out with them...

i wake up..work out..i get a message on AIM..asking if i was going to the beach..i said yes..and one of them told me..arite newport at 2pm..so thinking that i'm going to newport..i go to the grocery market..i get a phone call from working..and my manager tells me i am working from 6-10pm..so i calculated my time at the beach..i planned to stay there 2 hours then wash up there..and go straight to work from there..i call my friend who said he will carpool and drive..He doesnt answer his phone..i call the other guy thats with him..and he doesnt answer his phone either..soo i'm like screw this..

so i'm at the grocery market still..grab some grapefruit and some tea..i call the guys again..no answer..so i go home..and there they are playing basketball on my neighbors basketball hoop..and they didnt ask..i thought we had to ask..cuz i just find it a lil rude to play on someone else's hoop without asking..ANYWAYS..i get home and tell them that i work and i have to drive seperately...still thinking that i am going to newport..so they leave..i pack some stuff..i pack my work clothes..and all..and i head to newport...

so i get a text from my other friend who is already at the beach..and he said LAGUNA at 2pm..i'm like WTF!! so i turn around on the freeway..BUT there's only 1 freeway i can take..and thats the 73...which is also a toll road only freeway..so luckily i had change..and enough change too..or else i would have to pay the fine which was like 50 dollars..so thats about 2 bucks right there..so i'm already pissed off..

so i'm already late..its 230..i finally get the beach..i was really lucky on parking..got to the lot right when someone was leaving..BUT it was meter only..knowing that..i had 30 min that the other person left..so i went to the first gas station asking if they do cash back if i buy something..answer was NO..so i go to another gas station and they do cash back but charges 1.50 fee..so i'm like i need change..so i did it..i ask for a dollar in quarters..and he gave them to me..i ask if i could have another dollar in quarters..he said no..so i just said watevers and was on my way to the car..i go to the ice cream shop and they gave me quarters..i go to my car..put in 2 dollars..and that gave me like about 2 hours..i go to the beach call my friends to see where theyre at..THEY DON'T PICK UP THEIR PHONES!! i called them like 3 times each and theres like 4 of them..NONE OF THEM ANSWER THEIR PHONES..so i'm just standing there..and telling myself if they dont answer within the next 15 min..i'm gone..luckily i had James there to keep me company..well he was on his way too..so i was talking to him while waiting..literally after 30 minutes..someone calls me back..i finally find them..

so here i am sitting down..telling them why dont they pick up their phones..and all that..pissed off but i dont want to ruin the mood and show it..but they knew i wasnt having the greatest day..THEN i get a call from work...asking if i can come in an hour early..so i literally sat down for like 10-15 min..ate a sandwich and i get a call.so of course i said yes...because its work..aka money..so after sitting for like 15 min..i had to leave...

on my way back..i'm speeding because i need to make it by 5..and i had like about a good 45 min..i got to work early..BUT when i got to the parking lot..i realized my work clothes wasnt in my trunk..which means i left it at home..i had 20 min til by shift started..so i speed back home..but thankfully my managers gave me til 530..so i went home..changed and sped back and made it by 515..and started to work til 10..

by that time..i wanted to punch someone in the face..and i already know who i want to punch..haha..

but work made it a lil better because i love my co workers..they are chill..and we have fun while working..but sadly the manager that i was working with is leaving us and going to Hollister at the Garden Walk..but i am going to work with her on July 4th..party time at the moose! haha that is her last day with us..sad..

i get home..and james and my brother are playing games..we decided to go play ping pong this time..so its now 2am..what a day..

i still gotta shower..which imma go do right now..so never ever ever atttend an outing that is unorganized..seriously..this is the second time..why do i even go?? this was like seriously an FML moment..but i should stop saying FML..because i am thankful for my life.

arite..shower and then relax/sleep..PEACE!

-Susan

Nashville, TN=where the party is at

so when i told my friends that i was going to Nashville, TN they were like WTH?!?!?! why are you going to nashville..and my answer was..TO PARTAY!! hahaa it was true..but not that kind of party exactly..haha

so i got invited to Carrie Underwood's annual Fanclub Party. this is what i've always been waiting for..to party with Carrie Underwood..haha..so i get all my flight stuff situated..and as the day gets closer..i get excited and nervous at the same time because i'm traveling alone. my trip was from June 8th-11th. i landed in Nashville and was amazed at how green it was..it was pretty.

i get to my hotel..drop off my stuff and then camp out in front of the place the party is held at..its cool because like its a private party and only a certain amount of people get picked..and i was happy to be one of them :)

so as i am waiting outside..it wasnt cold at all...more like warm and humid..i remember walking out of my hotel with a jacket on and as i stepped out..i went back in because it was wayy to hot at like 2am in the morning..haha

camping out was fun. met some new people..got to chit chat with them..the party didnt start until like 11am..waiting for like 9hrs was totally worth it..once we got into the place..i was second row from the stage..AWESOME

never been so close to carrie..EVER!haha it was awesome. at the party she sang a number of songs..all the songs we voted on were like big songs..like big range songs..and so she brought out the lyrics cuz some songs were according to Carrie "Blast from the Past" songs. it was awesome. her voice is amazing. what an inspiration she is :)

after the small "concert" she gave to us..she answered some questions..and then we played a game with her..the game is 12 fans come up and compete against each other. two go at a time. and Carrie will sing either songs from her CDs or cover songs..and she can sing wherever she wants in the song..and she'll stop and the first person to ring their bell and sing the rest of the song..goes to the next round..sadly i only got to like the top 5..but you still go home with a gift..i got some merchandise..its cool..first place girl got 2 plane tickets to Carrie's Next show. second place girl got an ipod touch. carrie is so awesome.

after the game. just announcements and we headed off back to our places..the party was great. got a free shirt on the way out. took pictures..ya gotta check my facebook for that..only posted up a few out of the many i took.

after the party just chilled at the mall before the concert that same night..it was a night full of carrie underwood :) before the actual show there was a small show outside of the place and they were twin sisters. they were awesome. i got to meet them..and they were so nice. the actual Opry show was amazing..it made me realize how awesome country music is. carrie underwood the show with a finale set ;)

then it was rest time before the softball game the next day. softball game was awesome. its nice to see country artist just have fun with each other but at the same time help a good cause. i finally got the chance to "meet" carrie underwood..i didnt get a chance to take a picture because she was so busy. but she did sign my tshirt. my trip to nashville was awesome.

the plane ride back wasnt. delayed for 17 hrs..not fun. but i would so go to nashville again if i had the chance..its the home of country music..gotta love it :) i would so live there if i could..haha

that is the highlight of my vacation. now its back home..working on music. hopefully it will be liked by people. now i'm thinking about country music..if its possible :) gotta stick to country if i can :)

i'll post up one pic for each event.

camping out in line for Carrie Underwood's Fanclub party

Carrie Underwood Singing for us

Carrie Underwood at the Opry Show

Carrie Underwood at the City of Hope Softball Game

before Carrie Underwood left..she signed my shirt(it was the shirt they gave out last year..but i didnt go last year..but they were giving them out after passing out this years shirt) double the shirts :)

-Susan

Hawaii 09

so i was asked by one of my friends to go to hawaii with them. since i havent been on a vacation for awhile. i agreed to. it was also a way to get away from everything and just look at the beautiful places God has created. so from May 31-June 4th. was my trip to hawaii.

it was better than the first time i went there because we got to do our own thing. we had 4 full days to do whatever we wanted. we pretty much had our activities all planned out. at the end of each day i was pretty dead tired. we did activities like hiking, swimming/jumping off rocks, eat, eat, eat...haha..

we also did get a flat tire..hawaiian people are so friendly. a guy offered to help and also lead us to a used tired place and they fixed it for us. what nice people.

i also did swim from the beach to this island in the middle of the beach. i was the only one out of my group to do it. it was harder than i thought..or more tiring than i thought because i was fighting against the current while swimming. swimming back was faster than going there..but still tiring..haha

we came back home at like 5am in the morning..went home and just took a nap before watchin the basketball game with my friends..it was a long day..

then i was home for the weekend and then had to pack again for Nashville, TN!!!!

hawaii was awesome..there were pros and cons to it..but it was good to get a vacation. God has created a beautiful place :)

now my blog about Nashville, TN is next :)

No Boundaries

so i am suppose to study for my last final tomorrow..and it's history which i don't like..but instead here i am writing a blog. haha..

i cannot stop listening to this new song. it's called "No Boundaries" and it's sung by Kris Allen..who is the season 8 American Idol. i am happy for that guy. as i was listening to this song..i was figuring out the lyrics and once i did..i kept listening to it..just reading the lyrics..i will figure out the chords later..but for now i'm just reading the lyrics and listening to it..and i mean it fits for Kris Allen..because he now reached his dream. what dreams do we all have??

as i was at the american idol finale show yesterday (wednesday) i couldn't help but to be happy for someone i've never met..just stood really close to him. as i saw other idols..it made me think that they went through alot to seek their dream. as ya'll know my inspiration is season 4 american idol winner CARRIE UNDERWOOD! i did not know she was there the same day i was there at the american idol finale..i am sad that i did not get to see her..i only saw her on tv when i came home and rewatched American Idol. honestly it was the best finale ever.

during the american idol finale..i stood for so long..but now im used to it from work..haha.but i got to meet interesting people. i met dennis' favorite idol contestant..not carrie underwood though..i am sad..hha..but i'll be seeing her in a couple of weeks. i saw many past idol contestants. and the recent contestants that were cut off. during the show it was a BLAST. so many great performances. and the best part was getting to know who won American Idol before it actually aired on TV. haha just being a part of the whole show was great. i would so do it again. it was worth the long hours of standing i guess..it would have been better if i actually met Carrie Underwood..i did not know she was there..haha..if you ever get a chance..go to the FINALE of american idol :)

the point of this blog is as i was thinking while readin these lyrics..there really are no boundaries to where you want to go. you only make those boundaries. if you want to seek your dream just do all that you can. i learned that i have to fully believe in myself to actually start to reach that dream of mine. everyone has dreams. whatever it may be..never stop believing in yourself. just like people who are part of american idol. they don't stop believing in themselves and they make it to the next round, and the next and there's the finale. i have thought about trying out for american idol but a part of me wants to but then the other part of me just might not be able to take the harsh criticism that will be giving..but i mean thats part of improving. if someone told you that you were good at something but you really werent..how would you feel?? this song just kinda got me motivated in doing things to reach my goal.

i am happy that i was part of the celebration for Kris Allen. even though he does not know me or i was not seen on tv.. i am proud. he was just a normal college student like i am..and here he is now a star. so never stop believing people. trust in Him, and he will do great things :)

i should get back to "studying" for my history final now. :) hope ya'll are doing great. it's SUMMER!!!

No Boundaries- Kris Allen

Written By Kara DioGuardi

Seconds hours so many days

You know what you want but how long can you wait

Every moment last forever when you feel you’ve lost your way

What if my chances are already gone

Started believing that I could be wrong

But you give me one good reason

to fight and never walk away

So here I am, still holding on!

With every step you climb another mountain

Every breathe it’s harder to believe

You’ll make it through the pain

Weather the hurricanes

To get to that one thing

Just when you think the road is going nowhere

Just when you’ve almost gave up on your dreams

They take you by the hand and show you that you can

There are no boundaries (x2)

I fought to my limit

To stand on the edge

What if today is as good as it gets

Don’t know where the future’s heading

Nothing’s gonna bring me down

I’ve jumped every bridge

And I’ve run every line

I’ve risked being safe

But I’ve always been wise (I’ve always been wise)

So here I am, still holding on

With every step you climb another mountain

Every breathe it’s harder to believe

You’ll make it through the pain

Weather the hurricanes

To get to that one thing

Just when you think the road is going nowhere

Just when you’ve almost gave up on your dreams

They take you by the hand and show you that you can

You can go higher

You can go deeper

There are no boundaries

Above and beneath you

Break every rule coz there’s nothing between you

and your dreams

Cravings

every had a mad craving??

i get them once in awhile..but dont really end up succeeding..haha..

today my brother called me when he was on his way home..and he asked if i liked the bottled starbucks coffee..and i said..yea i used to drink them..but i gave up coffee..and its been like 5 months now that i have had no coffee..HAHA there are times i crave coffee when i go to starbucks..but now i just get iced tea..haha..what a great substitution.

i sometimes have weird cravings..or people just find it weird..i crave fruit ALOT..like i would give up fruit over anything..haha but everyone craves junkfood once in awhile...i admit i do..but i try to limit myself..to the point where i keep track of what i eat..people call me crazy...i know i know..hahaha...but its just my way of being healthy..yea i would eat candy once in awhile..or eat like a california burrito..but then during the week i would go to the gym to work it off..

if i had my own refrigerator...and have no trouble with money..i would have 3 medium size refridgerators...1. fruits, veggies, eggs, condiments. 2. drinks (vitamin water, water, naked juice, juice..people will have to bring the alcohol..haha my third fridge would be for all korean side dishes..or asian food that smells..hahha

i've never had 3 fridges.but if i had my own place..i would probably have like mini fridges with all those stuff that i mentioned..

mad cravings are the worst feeling..it makes you want to go to the store and by a whole lot of them..its like you cant resist..haha..

maybe i'll list one craving every time i blog..if i have one..haha

i did that with music..like song of the moment..maybe i'll start that one again..haha..but itll probably be like country music..everyone finds that weird..that i like country music..but i'll save that for another blog. :) to end this blog..i will say my craving (s)

1.coffee( didnt have it)

2. Mangoes/watermelon (failed to have )

so basically today i failed to have my cravings...oh well...

peace out for now

-Juno..yep thats what they call me

what a horrible monday morning...

so today..i did not go to school because lack of sleep and i know if i did go to my one class..i would fall asleep for sure. so i told my mom i was gonna stay home and take a nap.

so our house has this roommate who is the son of my mom's friend..so he is staying at our house..for i dont know how long..he has the room next to mine..i'm in the middle between his room and my brother's room. but my brother sleeps in the living room..so its all good..our walls are the thickest..so when someone talks loud or SNORES..i can hear it..and this guy snores freaking loud..this wasnt the first time it had happened too..i wake up because some loud noise..and check the clock..and its 3:30am. i'm like WTH! so i try to go back to sleep..but he snores and snores..and i try to listen to music..i get tired from music so i turn it off and here is he snoring away..i then check the clock and its 545AM..and now i am pissed off and cranky..so i move to the living couch..and what do you know...i can still hear his snore..put the pillow over my head..i can still hear it..i'm just like WTF!!!and when he sleep talks..he YELLS..i'm literally going to like sock him in the face....so i finally move to my CAR..and look at my phone..and its almost 7am..and i have to wake up at 8..so i literally got 1 hour of sleep..but told my mom i am not going to school..

people with soft snores arent that bad..i can sleep through that..but this was like bigger than an earthquake or thunder....you just have to be there to know what i'm talking about...

what a horrible way to start off a monday...

i need my sleep!!!

WHAT A BLESSED NIGHT!

so yesterday was the Hillsong United Concert at the nokia theatre in Los angeles. i wasn't planning on going because when the presale tickets became available i had absolutely no money. the tickets werent even expensive. BUT..TRACY..a very good friend of mine told me she was buying me a ticket..when i got the text..i had no words..what an awesome friend i have.

so the night comes..wow it was super packed. i remember the last time i went to the Nokia Theatre for Carrie Underwood's concert..even though that was packed too..there was a different feeling i had at the hillsong concert.

i have seen so many people get blessed during that concert. it wasnt a concert..it was definitely a night of worship. the message reminded me..that i shouldnt compare myself to others...like how i want what my friend has or i want to be like my friend..i shouldnt compare..i have to be myself and only myself. and there is hope..there is hope.

not only was i blessed by the worship, but just everyone around me. we all come here on a monday night..to worship the one who saved us. as a worship leader, it showed me..it doesnt take any skills to come and worship our lord. we come with our hearts and everything that we have and give it up to our Lord.

i needed a night like this. There is hope somewhere inside..i just havent found it yet i guess...but i will continue to believe.

comfort zone is something we all are afraid to get out..i can say for myself that its hard for me to step out of my comfort zone..but to reach out across the earth...we gotta get out..

let us worship our lord with all that we have..for he is the lord of everything.

"There is no one else for me, None But Jesus" - (None But Jesus- Brooke Fraser/Hillsong)

"You Hold Me Now"

-Susan

Away

Ever feel like you just want to get away from everything? because you feel like if you do, it would make everyone else feel better and they wouldnt have to deal with you??

if i could...i would so get away..

WEBSITES

so i've been gettin my music together..and tryin to get it out to the public..still got some work to do though..

just wanted to let ya'll know that i have a websites where you can hear my music..

i have youtube.com/peelbanana1211

myspace: www.myspace.com/susanyumusic

my website: www.susanyu.us

so if you ever want to hear what kind of music i have been making and covering..just go to those websites..if you go to my website..be sure to leave a comment on the guestbook :)

so spring break has started..and i dont have work..so its really like a break.

probably gonna work on some music..

just wanted ya'll to know about my music :)

oh yea.. you can follow me on twitter too at susan_juno_yu

twitter is pretty addicting..

well gotta go watch I Love You, Man now. peace out ya'll

OH YEA! if you are a carrie underwood fan. please vote for her for Entertainer of the Year for the ACM awards april 5th. go to her website.. carrieunderwoodofficial.fm and from there it should lead you to vote :) VOTE VOTE VOTE!! because she deserves to be Entertainer of the Year :)

XOXO

Susan aka JUNO

If I Could..I would Do anything..

this whole economic issue is driving me crazy. even after i got offered a position i'm not working..what is up with that? how can you offer someone a job and not give someone a work schedule. that is just wrong

it breaks my heart when i see my mom break into tears because of all the bills that need to be paid for and whenever my mom and brother break into an argument..there's nothing i can do because i'm the only one not making money. it bugs me..bugs me alot.. men who have no manners really bugs me... i have alot to say..but shouldnt say it..because i probably have no right to say it because i'm the only one with no job... :( i thought i would be working because i got offered a position, but after a 1month and a half later..still no work schedule. i think there's something with that picture. i'm still applying to different places..but no luck yet..

if there was anything i could do to help my family in anyway, i would definitely do it. gotta keep praying.

-Susan

Just Got Bored...

WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF:

1. I died:
2. I kissed you:
3. I lived next door to you:
4. I started smoking:
5. I stole something:
6. I was hospitalized:
7. I ran away from home:
8. I got into a fight:

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT MY:

9. Personality:
10. Eyes:
11. Hair:
12. Family:
13. Looks:

WOULD YOU:

14. Be my friend?
15. Keep a secret if I told you one?
16. Hold my hand?
17. Take a bullet for me?
18. Keep in touch with me if you went somewhere?
19. Try and solve my problems?
20. Love me?
21. Date me?
22. Sing/dance with me?

HAVE YOU EVER:

23. Lied to make me feel better?
24. Wanted to kiss me?
25. Wanted to kill me?
26. Made me cry?
27. Kept something important from me?
28. Thought I was annoying?

MORE:

29. Who are you?
30. Are we close?
31. Have you ever wanted to date me?
32. Have you ever liked/loved me?
33. When did we first meet?
34. Describe me in two words:
35. What was your first impression of me?
36. Do you still think the same?
37. What reminds you of me?
38. If you could give me anything, what would it be?
39. How well do you know me?
40. When's the last time you saw me?
41. When's the next time you want to see me?
42. Ever wanted to tell me something?
43. What song do you think would describe me best?
44. Are you gonna post this in yours to see what I say about you?

GIve it UP

so it's tuesday and it's already 10:30. this whole daylight savings really screws up my naptimes and whole sleep schedule in general. i mean i still do take naps during the day...but i cant take long naps now..because the time goes by so fast. i hate it. haha

as time goes by, i begin to realize that i have to figure out what i want to do with my life. i always tell myself that i'm going to do this in the future..but never consider going that way. so here i am back to where i started....going nowhere. in my Kinesiology class...we talk about how to check your grad credits and how to maintain your GPA to graduate and all..and it gets me thinking..when will i graduate? where will i be after i graduate? will i go into Kinesiology or will i go into music? if you don't know me. i'm the type of person to really think about things alot..deeply. even though it's a topic where you don't have to think deeply, but i still do. it's hard for me not to.

like for example: yesterday which was MONDAY. i was watching Dancing with the Stars and i actually voted this time via text message cuz the phone lines were busy, but i VOTED FOR THE WRONG PERSON...so all my 13 votes went to some random pair that i dont even know..so i used my brother's phone to text for the RIGHT person...and after i thought to myself..do they charge extra if it's like a tv show voting...and sometimes they do charge extra..some shows charge like $1 per text..so that got me paranoid..and i couldn't call because it was late at night..so the whole night i was worried that the bill was gonna be more than it's supposed to be. Even after when i read on the website that texting for the votes dont cost more than when texting a friend..it still got me worried that i was gonna be charged extra..see those little things get me worried and it's hard for me to sleep at night..i know it may seem to stupid..cuz i think it is..but i have many other examples..i used this one cuz its the most recent thing that happened to me...

i am 20 and still in school..don't know how long i am going to be in school at the pace i am going at...and it worries me that i can't make my family proud. i am jobless...well technically i got offered a job..but i am still waiting for them to call me back...those slackers..haha just kidding..being the youngest...and a girl..it's hard to follow footsteps...i wish there was something i could do to make my family proud of me and happy. my mom asks me this question alot "so..do you have a boyfriend?" at times i wish i did...being surrounded by couples, at times i wish i did...haha

i have to learn to just give it all up to God and know that he is in control.

alot of times i base my weeks/days on music. like a certain song will be stuck in my head or a song that relates to how i am doing at that moment. so at this moment. the current song would be "You are in Control" a classic praise song. i gotta remember that no matter what i do or where i go, God is in Control.

-Susan

TWITTER

so one day i was bored and i realized people are starting to have Twitter. it's like the new facebook or something. so i decided to join twitter and follow along with updated news. its actually pretty fun. i have so many things to keep up with..like this blogger here, myspace, youtube, facebook, emails, etc... so imma do my best..

but if you ever follow along with what i do..you can catch me on youtube, myspace, facebook, and twitter.

hope all is well..

OH! and Carrie Underwood's bday is march 10th..best wishes to her..AND she is now nominated for 4 ACM awards..cant wait!! she deserves nothin but the best :)

remember it's daylight savings..turn your clock 1 hour forward!!

-Susan

Votes! :)

so i hope everyone's Valentine's Day was a good one :) it doesn't necessarily have to be a romantic dinner with a dozen roses and chocolate. it can be spent with your friends, family, whoever :)

my valentine's day was relaxing. i pretty much stayed home, did some chores and played music. i then later bought flowers for my mommy because no one else would get her flowers..so me and my brother got her flowers :) THEN i was off to watch He's Just Not That Into You...i LOVED IT!!! i got teary during the movie..but it was a funny movie too :)

today is president's day and boy was it cold and rainy. it was raining pretty hard..scared me at some points..i caught up on my sleep today..and played some more songs :)

well today is the start of the valentine's day contest that i have entered...voting starts today and ends on sunday...and i love my family and friends. they are the best :)

if you read this and want to vote...go to www.kacmedia.org and click on contest and scroll to the bottom and watch my video...and if you like it..please vote for me..it's the youtube video of my original song called My Friend, My Love :) 

gotta get back to school mode :) hope you guys are well :)

-Susan

YAY FOR THE GRAMMYS

so the weekend was a lil busy...saturday was just the busiest..  had powderpuff with USC and UCR...it was pouring but we still played in the rain...and then the sun came out during the second half..USC won 28-0..which was better than last years score..i think last year was like 12-6...overall it was just so we can have fellowship..since i loved sports...i loved playing whether even if it was raining..anyways....

so yesterday the 51st Annual of the Grammys was on and the only performance i was looking forward to was Carrie Underwood's performance of her hit song "Last name". of course she sang it perfectly and beautifully.  i also noticed that her band got a little bigger. she had a female electric guitarist play during her performance and i fell in love with this version of Last Name. 

after her performance i just watched the Grammys on and off.. haha..carrie underwood all the way!!

other than watching the Grammys..everything has been going ok. just got school..and got a job..so hopefully that works out well..other than those two..i'm still on youtube..so i'm working on some new cover videos...got a few songs lined up from people who message me and request them..

the rain has gone away..or so it looks like it..cuz from my house its sunny.i havent gone outside yet..cuz its too cold..so hopefully the rain goes away..because it's kind of hard biking in the rain.  today was the first time i was biking while it was pouring....my backpack got all wet and my hair and clothes were soaked...but i got home as fast as i could.

then i just rested and stayed warm because i didnt want to get sick....

this week will be a long week because of school and my tv shows are not for another month...Gossip Girl is taking a break...for a month..dang..

but now i will be looking forward to dancing with the stars because Shawn Johnson will be casting in it :)

well i hope all is well for everyone. take cares

you can catch me on youtube...myspace, facebook, and here :)

-Susan

I Gotta Stick to this...

i posted a blog before this one..back in november 2008..but i decided to delete it..it wasnt much..just talked about the amazing Carrie Underwood..LOL!...anyways......

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so its the year 2009 now..or it has been for a couple of months now...so the last time i blogged on this thing was after i got back from Carrie Underwood's AMAZING concert at the Nokia Theatre..which was back in 2008..lol..

so i just remembered that i had made this blogger..LOL. 

it's so hard to keep track of this thing...i forget alot that i have this blogger..but i will do my best to keep people updated.

nothing really much happening in life right now..no changes..just school, church, workout, and trying to get a job.

unfortunately i didn't get the job at abercrombie and fitch...its arite..that just means i have to keep searching..i never knew how hard it was to get a job...and with all this financial issue stuff just makes life even harder...but i gotta keep my head up high..but its hard to when most of the time i'm home alone and like...most of my friends are far from me..so i dont really get to see them much unless its the weekend...

since i love music..i will try to post up like the song of the day for me on this blogger..it's probably gonna be mostly Country Songs..or aka Carrie Underwood songs..cuz i listen to Carrie underwood like everyday and Country music everyday too...so it's gonna be hard at times..cuz i have more than one..but we'll see how long this can last...

many people don't know i have this blog..but i shall try to announce it as much as i can...

for now..song of the day...So Small- Carrie Underwood

-Juno